Well here I am again, contemplating what to do. I am still sitting at 77kgs, still 8kgs from my goal and have been for soooooooooooo long now. I am so frustrated by the lack of progress, I actually doubt if I have actually lost any weight since I started the challenge back in Feb last year! I am so embrassased by this despite me trying. I’ve tried eating everything in sight, eating nothing, exercising till I drop and not exercising at all, drinking gallons of water a day, drinking no water at all. I just don’t know what is going on. I feel like I have lost my way, that I no longer understand or am in tune with my body and now every day is a fight and struggle with myself. I refuse to give up, this is the easy way out and I just can’t do it. I can’t imagine making that call to Damian to say I have given up and that I am happy with my 77kgs cos I’m not, how can I be. I want this so much, I really do and it doesn’t seem like such a feat when I hear of others dropping kg after kg with little or no effort. Why can’t I, why?????
I’m so grateful for the knowledge I have gained over the past 3 years since making contact with Damian, I know I will never EVER revert back to the “junk food” such as McD’s etc, and I may even be a little OCD about the food I eat now yet my goal still eludes me. Why can’t there be a “Biggest Loser” angel who can come down, sweep me up for a few weeks, take me away and control absolutely everything I eat and exercise me till I drop, cos I know that once I reach goal I will be able to maintain it. Hell, I’ve been maintaining 77kgs for so long now I’ve become an expert! So until an angel appears to whisk me away, a mini Damian becomes available to sit on my shoulder 24/7 or until something miracle like happens that allows my body to release these last 8kgs I guess I will continue. Thanks for listening.
Yours in good (great) health,
Lloydy
hi karen well i got a lump in my throat reading this blog as it is so similar for me and i guess our personality types mean we will have this fight to battle for the rest of our lives (i did need a hoby) i to am still grapling with the final kilos and its so frustrating when youve lost so much already . i have been going it alone since my challenge ended which has been interesting i ve been on the brink many times .thankfully i have phyliss on my shoulder nagging in my ear which seems to make me pull my head in.anyway hope you are well
kerri